Initially, I am timid to say that when the day came on Monday, May 30th to get on the plane and travel to Oregon for the start of this next grand adventure in my life, I had succumbed to overwhelming nerves. At first I was very embarrassed. In the past few months since I had received the exciting news that I had been selected to be a 2016 Merchandising Intern for Nike, I had been filled with overwhelming joy. So why did I suddenly have a pit in my stomach? Deep down in the week leading up to the internship, there was a single query that had popped into my head and rattled around in my thoughts. I thought to myself, “This is my dream job! I have never wanted something so badly in my life,” which is saying something as a collegiate athlete who is completely head over heals for my sport. “But…. what if I’m not good enough?” I started to think. “What if I fail? I have dreamed about interning for Nike since I first came on my recruiting trip to the University of Arizona and heard about the amazing opportunity.”
After sharing this thought with loved ones, I found out just how common it is. Everyone gets nervous. Who wouldn’t? You are taking a leap of faith, you are moving to a strange place where you may only know a few people, in a brand new job where you don’t know what to expect. That is very intimidating. Yet, after I had said goodbye to my boyfriend and waited for my flight, all my nerves dissipated and my mind was at ease. This sense of calm had come when one of my favorite quotes popped into my head. In a short poem written by Erin Hanson, she says, “What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” That is exactly what I intend to do this summer, I intend to spread my wings and fly! In that moment I was reminded, I have all the experience I need. The past 20 years have prepared me in every moment leading up to this point, I need only trust in myself and regain my confidence.
It is safe to say, my childlike wonder returned. Even though I may not be able to control what will happen, I have the opportunity to give it my all and make the most of the incredible opportunity I have been given. While I had sat in the airport and on the plane, I couldn’t help but smile when I looked around observing not just the people but the fact that nearly every other person I saw had the famous Nike swoosh printed somewhere on their wardrobe. I kept thinking on the flight that Wednesday simply could not come soon enough. I am unbelievably appreciative of the experience I will be receiving over my twelve weeks in Oregon.
After an unforgettable internship orientation and a successful first few days at the internship of my dreams, I have never felt so at home. I already feel a part of the team and a part of something much bigger than me. I was welcomed with open arms and an eager merchandising team ready to help teach me the tools of the trade. I look forward to what the next eleven weeks have in store and to keep you guys updated on my exciting journey along the way.
As a reminder, it is important to note that the words I write in this post and the many more to come are of my own opinions and do not reflect that of my internship sponsor.